I understand

"Stefan, Please call me. Please. I need to you to know that I understand. I love you. I'll love you forever. I understand" - Caroline Forbes, TVD, 8x16

That moment when a fictional couple you ship so hard, broke you down because you relate so much . Fuck you Julie Plec. I don't hate you because I understand what Kevin Williamson is saying about Stelena (and YES I'd approve that) but fuck you still. Stefan Salvatore is a better person than Damon Salvatore have been and he deserves happiness.


Grenade related

I'd die for you. I even told you I'd wipe your shit in case you've become a useless vegetables. But I guess you'd do this for anyone who would love you


The Last Star (The 5th Wave, #3) by Rick Yancey (Book review)

The Last Star (The 5th Wave, #3)The Last Star by Rick Yancey
My rating: 3 of 5 stars

This book is a roller coaster. Not in a good way unfortunately. It's a hit and miss along the journey. I have to be honest that I don't have a good memory for the dozens of fictions I've read/watched, so I actually had to go to The Infinite Sea's Wikipedia and read the plot summary lol I also re-read my own review of that book because I only remember that The Infinite Sea isn't as great as The 5th Wave and things got weird.

I picked up some disappointment here and there too about the writing style of this book. And I have to agree with these people. What made me so into the 5th wave is the beautiful prose and writing style of Yancey. Somehow it changes in this book. I try to rationalize that the characters are changing too because after all they are teens and now they are huddled up together and teens do what teens do when they feel like their "normal" pre-Arrival life. But the humor are still excessive. That's why I said it's a hit and miss. Sometimes I can appreciate the humor but then Yancey just doesn't know when to stop.

Or how every single character keeps questioning their thinking. Repeatedly. In an unnecessary way. Or the way Cassie keeps thinking (writing in her diary in this case) what the readers are thinking. And at the same time keeps saying no one will read her diary anyway. This is my biggest annoyance of this book.

I slowly dislike Sam, Cassie, Ben and oh my god I completely don't care about Evan anymore when he's going all "I love you and nothing else matters" but then keeps doing that solo soldier thing. I grow to like Ringer more though. I had problems with her enhancement from the last book but at least I can see her purpose on the plot.

The ending saved it from me giving it an okay. There are some glimpse of Yance's original writing style as he wrote how heart-breaking (but beautiful) the conclusion of this series. I was holding my breath hoping that Ringer or Cassie don't die (by halfway of the book, they are the only two characters I care to survive) and almost cried because it was an emotional ending.

I'd recommend people to read the 5th Wave but the rest of the series is very optional.

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Well that's new..

Drunk blogging ex instead of drunk calling ex. What the hell, brain?


cock it

To love is a curse. To break from it is not in a form of hate because to hate is just loving the opposite of what you formerly love. To break the curse of love is to seek the non-existence of love. To feel nothing.



I'm not healing. Not even close.


Alien: Out of the Shadows By Tim Lebbon

Alien: Out of the ShadowsAlien: Out of the Shadows by Tim Lebbon
My rating: 5 of 5 stars

At first I was going to give this book a 4 star because it means it's a already great book for me but I was being a book snob. I thought why would I give a sci-fi monster thriller story a perfect score. But then I thought fuck it. It deserves a 5 star.

Lebbon did everything (almost) right, as much as he could for a book about Xenomorph and filling in between the first and second movie. Not to mention Ripley is a part of it too. I wonder if this is his personal choice or Ridley had some input. Lebbon didn't waste time by making prolonged intro and we are greeted by the xenomorph instantly. After that, there is no dull moment because everyone is being put on the edge of not knowing what's on their corner, constantly being attacked and damnit he made me like each and every characters. Because you want them to survive and it's disappointing when they die.

I do have a tiny problem with how Lebbon made Ripley fit in in this story and not ruining the continuity of Aliens, but I can easily ignore it. I'd recommend the book to anyone who is a fan of the Alien franchise.

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Alien: Sea of Sorrows (Novel #2) by James A. Moore

Alien: Sea of Sorrows (Novel #2)Alien: Sea of Sorrows by James A. Moore
My rating: 4 of 5 stars

I lowered my expectation because I really liked the second book. And this one got a lower star not because that it's not as good, I just don't have a really good ability to try to memorize every single characters and this book has dozens of names. Especially because this is the kind of book that doesn't really try to give specific looks of the characters (who are mostly mercenaries).

The story is still interesting and still action packed. It's even more crazy because with these mercs separating themselves into groups and go to separate places, the encounters with the Xenomorphs are even more frequent. But mercs being mercs, they don't really have much of personalities than just being a soldier with an objective. So compared to the first book that makes us stick with a small group and get to know them better, this one is more sterile.

I do have a tiny personal problem with Decker's job. I won't spoil it even though it's pretty much revealed in the first few pages and people probably would think "you have a problem with that, while you are reading a story about alien infestation in a planet?" Well yea..I admit the weirdness. Of course I understand that this new thing is something that helps with the story and understanding a little bit more about the Xenomorph race. I hope this kind of thing never show up in the movies because I think it will ruin it for me.

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Alien: River of Pain (Novel #3) Alien: River of Pain by Christopher Golden

Alien: River of Pain (Novel #3)Alien: River of Pain by Christopher Golden
My rating: 3 of 5 stars

It's sad that I'm finally finishing this Alien novel trilogy because I really enjoyed them all. But this is the weakest of the three. I'm sure a lot of people have said the same thing over and over what this book's problem is. There are too damn much of unimportant background story but too shallow at the same time. I understand that it's gotta be a difficult job to make people empathize to even a small group of people in the colony, but Golden should've focused more on the ones he would like to make heroes or villains instead of some side missions and extra characters that I don't care if they die in the Alien attack.

I mean, we all know what happened to this colony already from The Aliens movie.

Lebbon really set the standard really high on the first book that I'm pretty sure people are expecting we'll get Xenomorphs on our face as soon as possible but still loving the characters that didn't survive.

Another problem that bugs me (and please correct me if I'm wrong), there are some parts where Golden was almost lazy in writing when he makes Anne just out of the blue can guess that the Xenomorph are a hive kind of alien. And then the scientists (also some other people?) used the term "Xenomorph" to call the aliens. I understand the definition of Xenomorph itself, but the word is not even introduced in an organic way. Were they already called Xenomorph by Weiland-Yutani? I don't know. It was just suddenly thrown in the paragraph as a name.

In the end, I still like the book, still enjoy reading it, still getting my heart tugged on some death scenes, but I wish Golden would write half the books about how the colony defended themselves. That's what we would really want to know.

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I wish I can turn it off like normal people do

I've cried to sleep, I've cried until I can't breathe, I've cried until I have an unpleasant headache.


Mind. Fuck.

This little pig is already weak and wild as fuck, and the wolf is relentlessly chasing. Blowing, huffing, puffing, scratching, biting the house down.


I knew it

It was some kind of version of a deal breaker. There's a lifeline still hanging. It's like that last nerve in 127 hours where Franco had to cut off. So painful beyond anything even just to touch it. It was still the highlight of my day, just with a short footnote saying *I knew it


Fish out of the bowl

It felt like being shoved into your favorite chocolate factory, but your taste bud is currently damaged and you can't taste shit